When Blessings Don’t Look Like Blessings

A lot has happened at the end of this year.

I’ve come to realize something that is both simple and difficult at the same time: sometimes blessings are disguised. And unless you’re actively looking for them, the very thing God is using to help you may be standing right in front of you.

When circumstances feel messy and uncertain, our instinct is often to assume the worst. I hate to admit it, but that is one of the things I struggle with most. I am grateful for God’s grace, because He knows how my mind works. He knows that this is a real battle for me—and He meets me in it anyway.

Before going any further, I want to acknowledge something openly. Rooftop Prayer Warrior has been quiet for a while. Not because the calling disappeared, and not because the work stopped mattering—but because life required everything I had. Balancing responsibility, health, and provision left little margin for writing, reflection, or sharing. The rooftop didn’t go away; it simply had to wait.

For some time now, I’ve been confused about why God allowed me to remain in a situation that was not good for me physically or mentally. I don’t want anyone to speculate about what I mean, and I’m not able to discuss specifics. What I can say is this: I am the sole provider responsible for my bills and expenses. When circumstances changed, I knew something had to be different.

I tried. I prayed. I pursued opportunities.
And one by one, every door became a dead end.

I prayed many prayers, yet it seemed as though nothing was changing. Philippians 4:19 says, “And my God will supply every need of yours according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” I’ve always known that verse. I’ve always believed it. But despite that, things continued to spiral into uncertainty.

Then, this month, God did something unexpected.

He blessed me with something I didn’t ask for—but desperately needed: time.

Time to rest.
Time to think.
Time to listen.

Time to recover.

To most people, this kind of change would cause panic. Questions like “How will I meet my obligations?” or “What comes next?” would be overwhelming. But instead of fear, God has given me peace—real peace—about my current situation. He has shown me how to take care of what needs to be handled, and He has quieted the noise that once consumed my thoughts.

I don’t know what your circumstances look like today. I don’t know what uncertainty you may be facing. But I do pray this: that you will continue to seek Jesus, even when the path ahead isn’t clear.

God always has you at the front of His story—especially when you can’t yet see how the next chapter will unfold.