More Than You Know: When God Is Working Behind the Scenes
Last month, I posted a follow-up from my recent visit to the Cleveland Clinic. Since then, I’ve spent a lot of time reflecting—not just on that visit, but on the progress I’ve made since February. The improvements in my condition have been undeniable, and I’m so grateful for them.
But along with the progress, I’ve also faced setbacks. I had to stop physical therapy because my insurance stopped covering the visits, even though both my therapist and neurologist agree that I need to continue. While that’s a frustrating hurdle, the deeper challenge I’ve been facing is in my mindset.
After spending time thinking through this past year, I’ve come to realize that I need to let go—mentally and spiritually. If we're honest with ourselves, many of us carry burdens and try to control things that we were never meant to hold. I know I have.
Back in 1997, I made the decision to follow Jesus. I was at the end of my rope and knew I needed something greater—someone greater—to lead me. That moment changed everything. It was especially difficult for someone like me who needed to feel in control. But following Christ meant surrender. It meant trusting even when it didn’t make sense.
Some said I was crazy to leave a paying job to minister to students with no compensation. But God worked it out, and I wouldn’t trade those years of service for anything. Today, even though how I serve looks different, God continues to use my life and my gifts to reach others.
And yet, I sometimes forget that following Jesus doesn’t mean life will be free from hardship. In John 16:33, Jesus tells us plainly:
“In this world you will have trouble. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”
He never promised a life without struggle—but He promised His peace in the middle of it.
So why do I still worry about things I should be giving to Him? Why do I act like it’s all on me? God has been gently reminding me of truth—through scripture and song.
Paul encourages us in Ephesians 6:10-18 to put on the full armor of God so we can stand strong against spiritual battles. It’s a daily decision. We don’t wrestle against flesh and blood. And we don’t fight alone.
I’ve also found comfort in music lately. One song that’s spoken to me deeply is “I Know a Name”:
I know a name that can silence the roaring waves
I know a name that can empty out a grave
I know a name, it's the only name that saves
And it's worthy of all praise…
Something comes out of the grave every time I call Your name.
Another powerful reminder comes from “I Don’t Fight Alone”:
There are angel armies I have yet to see…
I know that I don’t fight alone.
No matter what it looks like—I don’t fight alone.
These songs echo a powerful truth: God is with us. He’s gone before us. And He stands beside us.
The truth is, it’s not that I don’t trust God—it’s that I sometimes act like I have to help Him out. But real trust doesn’t come with conditions. It doesn’t mean worrying in the background. It means surrender. It means believing that even when I don’t understand the outcome, He is still good.
I’m learning—day by day—to believe that. To trust Him. To do things His way. And I’m realizing that even when things don’t go the way I planned, God is still at work.
A recent sermon reminded me:
Our Father in Heaven can do anything… and He is doing more than you know.
That hit me.
So I had to ask myself:
Do you believe that?
Do you trust Him?
Will you do things His way?
I can say with confidence that the answer to the first two is a resounding YES. And now, I’m working on the third—letting go of control, and letting God lead.
This is why I trust the next chapter. Not because I know what’s ahead—but because I know Who is writing it.
